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Gone Madly

Father, I’d madly love

To wipe my tears with her blood

And I pray at the river’s name

And I taste at the river’s face

Hey, wait, I need a moment here,

Stay to watch me cleanse away faith

I need not a second name

as I already failed with grace

 Mother, I’d madly hate

To fear what I mistake

And I feed at the river’s need

And I bleed at the river’s knees

Hey, wait, I need a moment here,

Stay to watch me cleanse away faith

I need not a second name

as I already failed with grace

You've Been Reckoned

Shout

For the man who’s taken

Shout

For the pity in his hands

Shout

For the blood on this walls

Shout

For supply and demand  

 

Well, there ain’t no angels looking down on me  

 

Shout

For your fear awakening

Shout

For the stakes must raise

Shout

For the dead will walk here

Shout

For to curse his name  

 

Well, there ain’t no angels looking down on me

The Ballad of Jewanda Faye

Momma never wanted me

From the very first day

But Poppa said I was his girl

So that’s why I stayed

He taught me everything I know

While Momma ran away

But he couldn’t help me that rainy day

With that man who got away

 

Oh no...

  

My man was tall and lovin

I heated up just like an oven

He wanted me to live with him

In everlasting sin But Poppa said my girl

Your momma was a tramp

So I told my man no

And that night we broke hands  

 

He was my man, my one and only

He hasn’t bothered to telephone me

He was my man, he got away

From Jewanda Faye

  

 Bubba, I thought you loved me

But I was wrong right from the start

Cuz you got in your pickup truck that day

And you drove off with my heart

He left me the next mornin

Before the sun had risen

That last I heard about him

He was spending time in prison

 

 Everyone help me oh...

 

 He was my man, my one and only

He hasn’t bothered to telephone me

He was my man, he got away

From Jewanda Faye He was my man, my one and only

He hasn’t bothered to telephone me

He was my man, he got away

From poor Jewanda Faye

 

 I never see the sunshine now

My tears, they flow like rain

You know, even if he rots in prison

I’ll never forget his name

The Real Suffering

Now I am questioning in my somber shoes

Fought the main attraction and fed to better use

Taste my glass of temptation and drink all if I could

Killed my cry with an arrow like a blind man should

I have no good story, for my lord to need

She has no addition for my heavy read

I have NO found glory, for my soul to seed

It has no real calling, but real suffering 

Now to oblige & steer a tired warning

How much can I remember what was yearning

Now to define & shield the sirens flickering

How much do I pretend I had no warning

I have no afflictions, for my lord to see

She has no valid cares for my misery

I have NO redemption for my staggering

I walk no troubled road, but stride stumbling

In Cheating I

I’m sorry we are alone for reasons I have always known

But sweet love & devotion means nothing at all

Cause we tired emotion to feed on other walls

 I’m sorry that I lied for what I am inside

But sweet love & devotion teaches nothing at all

Cause we took the notion to need for our fall

Weep while the demotion keeps us a float

See our hearts an ocean, but we haven’t got a boat

No awaken, no history, no mouth taken to separate

Come'on

Green eyes and lips that abide

Are not the things that I adore

So why hypnotized by your sky and sinking soul

But I’ve never met no need ever like you before

My mind has never been this blind and dumb and filthy and poor  

Come’on

Let’s here it for the boy whom caved our hearts in

Let’s here it for the noise that still taunts will your head

Let’s here it for the joy that we once believed  

On my last knee, I’d give my dreams and all you’re asking for

The season when I was alive does not exist anymore

Cause I’ve never met no need at all like you before

My flame has never burned this bold of fright and sickened scorn  

Come’on

Let’s here it for the boy whom caved our hearts in

Let’s here it for the noise that still taunts will your head

Let’s here is for the joy that we once believed  

You’re not quite a light, you’re more like my Jesus Christ

Regression

I raise my hands, surrenders pose

I choke among it’s highs & lows

I tired where learns my escape

I tithe the means, a perfect mistake

And I don’t know if you’ve forgiven me

Though I know where the hell has taken me

Never Will We Be Forever

Will I be dead on the hour that you reached up for my hand?

If I tremble, can I beg you for an easier demand?

Yeah, I can talk about forever

Even though I’ve reached the end

Yeah, I can try not to remember

Even though I failed instead

Yeah, I can never hear an answer

Even though I ’m questioning

Yeah, we can walk beside together

Even though I fall again  

Is my timing that flawed that I stumble in my head,

“If I stay here any longer, I have failed you as a friend”?

 Yeah, I can talk about forever

Even though I’ve reached the end

Yeah, I can try not to remember

Even though I failed instead

Yeah, I can never hear an answer

Even though I ’m questioning

Yeah, we can walk beside together

Even though I fall again

Say Pain.

If I try harder to exchange

The fault of all there is to blame

Will my prisoners let go?

I question what’s more flattering  

I say pain

I said pain 

If I try faster to believe

In all the things all never be

Will I take on a stronger hold?

I question what’s more interesting  

I say pain

I said pain

Ananias

("He hath crushed me, he hath made me an empty vessel, he hath swallowed me up like a dragon, he hath filled his belly with my delicates, he hath cast me out.") -Jeremiah 51:34

I know that I tremble when I’m spinning right out of control

I know that I’ll let go when the grasp is too long for my hold

I know the misleading is what’s really misunderstood

But I need with a blank page to devour all of your words, because...  

...You know you really failed me good! 

 I know that I reckoned for the reasons, I wish for faith

I know that I’ve broken more promises than I have made

I know that the treason may ugly more my detest

But I bleed as the memory for time to erase the best, because...  

 ...I know I really failed you good! 

I know in this anything world we tear others to pieces is that each other or others

I know in this anything world there’s nothing left to reach us,

I know in this anything world we tear each other to pieces

I know in this anything world there’s nothing left to reach, because…  

 ...We know we really failed it good!

  I holler

Death Is/As The Object

A loss is my way to learn my lesson well

Douse in fire and burn straight to hell

I need exemption from what I know is pain

I’m shy to shatter the glass of many things  

Held onto him, but I lost my man again

Held with both hands, but I lost a friend instead

Held onto him, but I let go for its end

No longer win a crime forgiven  

I sleep in dirt, clean off in the morning

I stain in hurt, bleach a whiter warning

I ash desire that is softly falling

I do proceed with no gallant calling  

 Held onto him, but I lost my man again

Held with both hands, but I left him there dead

Held onto him, but I let go for the mend

No longer win a crime forgiven

 Oh no

24 Hours, 17 Minutes Revisited

Like a child so impatiently

Like a boy who misses his dad

I would cry until I got my way

I would miss you more than that

24 hours, 17 minutes

I spent in your brick apartment

I fell in love and it’s trembling sober

And it’s something I should have said

Like a crime so influential

Like a faith that woken all paths

I would steal, cheat, and murder

I would believe in you more than that

24 hours, 17 minutes

I spent in your brick apartment

Days thereafter are all colder

And it’s something I should have said

And it will leave me a little dead

In The Early AM

Hey, Joe, you have a beautiful smile

And I know that it attracts my exile

But so it goes

You have remarkable eyes

And it is so

That I could live on that line 

That I could live on that lie  

Hey, Joe, your aim is stunning and sublime

And I don’t know if your romance is worth a dime

But so it goes

I weep and wail to fahrenheit

And it is so

I’m gonna take my life tonight 

I’m gonna take my life tonight 

For you

In Tongues Thee Farewell

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